I have always quit; I deserve recognition for starting projects I never finish. I attended at least five colleges, names of which I can’t always remember. Doesn’t everyone forget the names of the colleges they ? No?
Obviously not. My post-secondary education is one of the many strange anti-completions. I write for my benefit, as well as for others who start and stop as a habit. I have slacked waaaaay off on my posting, and on reading your posts. I am not quitting this time, and I’ve got good reasons; writing them will aid me in remembering that those reasons are acceptable.
I am writing less, reading fewer posts and commenting on even fewer. Some other projects I started and never finished (please forgive the list — my bullets and numbering are still busted, somehow,):
*** I have pledged to eat more carefully and keep track of my blood sugar, but I never followed through. Today is my twelfth day; I am feeling quite confident, after my kidney scare, I must do this.
*** I married three men; I couldn’t make any of them last. None of these men was the one; each time, I was intent on finding that man who loved me, sincerely enough to fool me, at least. I feel nudges of that desperation even now, but I am also doing very well living alone. It’s a relief: I make my own schedule and break it if I want to. I am quite lucky — I wake each day and live by my own ethic. A blessing indeed.
*** I have said I would walk daily, as walking the exercise of choice for me, but I only walked regularly one time, in a group, which no longer meets. I am keeping an eye out for a treadmill that has been gently used; one which I can use on the third floor without driving the renter below me crazy.
I ignore the rituals of my spiritual life. I am a woman starving in an abundant jungle of opportunities. Recently, I made my spiritual life a priority once more, thanks to Dream Team. I am reshaping my life once again, to include these daily rituals.
My diabetes log is another project I’m keeping, and I intend to maintain; I eat less, keep my blood sugars lower, and feel better about the whole thing. I also thank the Dream Team for support on this. The satisfaction of these new good habits benefits every area of my life.