Once upon a time, I spent a year as a bookkeeper, learning the job as I worked. My employer was a grouchy but lovable man, for whom I had taught basic guitar lessons the year before. His music store overflowed with Hammond organs and Baldwin pianos. Rounding out the inventory was a large collection of sheet music, some guitars, and rentable band instruments.
I dusted a lot and kept the music inventory as neat as I could. The job didn’t involve much skill, but it was a paycheck. Then I was moved to the office and became the bookkeeper — the owner trusted me, and he knew that I was capable of more than dusting and sweeping. (I would be embarrassed if he saw my apartment now — dusting and sweeping aren’t high on my list now, either!)
I enjoyed bookkeeping;
I love a job that is important, but doesn’t require making life-or-death decisions. I realize now that I was a very basic bookkeeper — much I didn’t learn. But I enjoyed office work, and I used those skills many times in my life. I am using them now.
I never kept blood sugar logs which satisfied my doctors; I thought for the last 38 years that tracking the foods I ate would be embarrassing, and would cause my doctor great disappointment, (. I held that fear, up to a few years ago, when I hooked up with my current diabetes team. Even two times since then, I’ve started a log, only to find myself many days behind, needing to fudge in remembering and logging meals.
This time feels quite different; I just finished my fourth week, (I thought it was three, but it’s better than that.) I learned one little trick to stick with these logs: I treat them as I did the books in the music store. At the end of the day, I review my log, add any missing info, and save. Then, the next morning, I’m not scurrying to catch up. In this way, I manage to keep my blood sugar reports as complete as possible. Doing this helps my doctor make decisions on the amount of insulin I take.
So here I am, with a full month’s worth of records for the doctor. I am anticipating a good appointment. If I change what I eat, or how much insulin I use, I can compare the two months’ info, and understand why change is required, and if it works. For once, I look forward to sitting with Dr. Brodsky, unafraid of him, and hear him tell me what comes next.