Plans Can Change

Abraham-Hicks may be found here.  Esther Hicks, with help from husband Jerry, publishes quotes from Abraham’s various seminars, as affirmative daily emails.  Here is one from earlier this week:

Whatever you’re thinking about is literally like planning a future event. When you’re worrying, you are planning. When you’re appreciating you are planning…What are you planning?

— Abraham

Excerpted from the workshop in Silver Spring, MD on Saturday, April 19th, 1997 # 38

Does anyone feel a little skeptical about this?  I did, when I first started reading Abraham’s works.  How in the world could feeling one way or another be translated to actual events, just a little way down the days of my life?  I felt so out of control back then — I believed I had no choice in the way things happened to me.  And that was part of the difficulty — I saw my life as a series of things being done to me.  How childish I was.

Not that I hadn’t had a few reasons to feel that way.  Even considering my own fault in the flaws of my health, smoking cigarettes, smoking pot, drinking a lot all combined to bring on some very difficult health situations, but I refused to look at my own behavior.  I simply saw the world as an enemy to overcome every day.

I was 38 years old when I underwent quadruple bypass surgery, resulting in four extra thoracic surgeries after I developed a staph infection in my sternum.  (Read more about that here.)  I was 40 when I underwent emergency gall bladder removal, because no one recognized my symptoms, daily vomiting and diarrhea, as gall bladder disease.  After that surgery, while awaiting my ride home, I went into ventricular fibrillation, due to an imbalance in my electrolytes.  I received two or three blasts from the paddles before I woke up.

These are two examples of times when I believed the world as a whole concept didn’t want me around anymore.  My life is full of these, up until about two years ago.  On that day, all of the lessons I’d learned from my sister, and all of the outside resources I read during those difficult times, gelled into one loud voice in my head — in the form of a Four Agreements card:

No one hurt me unless I let them,

and the corollary statement:

No one can love me unless I let them.

Suddenly, I got it.  I took a long time to incorporate this all the way into my center, but that one night I realized that I controlled my life, that I could give myself a good shake, and start down the road Abraham speaks of in this Affirmation.  Instead of blaming everyone and everything else for my bad lot in life, I came nose-to-nose with myself, finally knowing that my feelings do determine future events.

I spent the majority of my life believing that situations were being put on me by others; suddenly I faced the fact that I was responsible for my life, and not anyone or anything else.  My first task was to forgive myself for all the problems I’d caused myself over the years.  No small task.

I used Abraham’s method to do this, reminding myself over and over that I deserved to be forgiven, that I would be happy with the years I have left here on earth, that a Glass-Half-Full attitude was the way to go.  I got happier, almost immediately, and started loving myself, instead of hating.

Since that time, I experienced all kinds of old triggers — the kind that could sink me so low into depression, instead became the near-normal reaction that everyone experienced up days and down days, and that as long as I valued and loved myself, I could be sure that the dips would only last hours or a day, after which, my contentedness with life would rise to the surface again.

A rather long, rambling post to reach an important point:  If we believe that we are miserable, and beyond hope, our lives will contain a lot of misery and hopelessness.  But if we can just find one thing about which we can think positively, that contented feeling will begin to multiply in our lives,  We have no guarantees of an epiphany, but this way anyone can take small steps toward their happiness.

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3 responses to “Plans Can Change

  1. Pingback: Changing Plans (working the Law of Attraction) | Diabetic Redemption

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