Today is the last day of August. Already. This summer flew by right in front of me. Fortunately, I spent most of the days of summer living in the moment, and really loving life. For that, I will always be grateful. Other summers passed, just as quickly; the difference this summer is my ability to live now, to stop worrying about yesterday, and not worrying about tomorrow. This feeling is new, but I think I have looked for it all my life. Now I know why.
I’m thankful, as well, for the continuing improvement of my will, and my determination to live in peace and joy. I wanted for years to live in peace, but I never determined that I would, regardless of any cost. Turns out, I pay almost no cost for this much better way of life.
I continue daily to exercise and to believe in the power of positivity. My marble-incentive program goes well — this week, my friend Darreby bought me a beautiful summer dress, with dragonflies for decoration. I love it! Thanks, Darreby, and thank you for all your encouragement — I love you, my dreamy buddy. I just used the last few marbles in my bowl for yesterday’s successes. Time for another reward. I think I may go to Five Islands Lobster Company, for one more oceanside dinner before the summer ends. I am definitely now going for sweets, though — I am much stronger and in less pain than I have ever been, but I am not losing inches around the middle, and that is the one part of me that really needs attention. More walking should do the trick.
I am thankful for my job, and for the people for whom, and with whom, I work. I went to work yesterday morning — just another day. After fifteen minutes at the register, I noticed that I was smiling without thinking about it. Smiles on my face have been few and far between in years gone by — suddenly, I am in a peaceful, happy mood which shows in my expression, and in most of my daily activities. What a nice way to feel!
I am grateful for my family, my friends, my bloggy friends, for living in a community with so little crime and unrest. I can not remember clearly, after almost a year, the miserable life I led before. (And I don’t mean miserable all the time — I wasn’t, but also, I was not monitoring my diabetes, not taking my medications carefully, not living in the moment.) I could remember every awful occurence, but I am losing any interest in those events, and that time. Now is a very good time for me, and I am living it well. For that, I am especially grateful. I am a very lucky woman.